Half way through a deployment, no matter how long it is, two things happen at the same time that make you think you are a little on the crazy side. One is that you finally hit your stride. You feel like you have picked yourself up, quit your whining and taken control of life. You hit stabilization. The paradox is that at the exact same time you look ahead and think you have as far to go as you have come and get discouraged. We have done over 13 deployments and this always happens to me. On one hand I am pulling it together, on the other hand I don't know how much longer I can hold it together. Ah, the joys of being a military family.
About this time though things start to happen to renew your faith in yourself and God. Friends step in to help out, people from your command start getting together more, and if you are really lucky, your baby starts sleeping through the night again. Sometimes something better happens. Not always, and you can't ever plan on it, but just sometimes the phone rings about this time during deployment and you hear a far away voice you had almost forgotten. He tells you he's fine, things are good and he misses adn loves you. He only has a minute but you replay the call over and over in your head for days to come. You remember why you do all of this. Just sometimes, in the midst of all of it, the best things happen.
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