October 9, 2008

Faith in Every Footstep

I haven't posted about this because I have been in denial. And angry and confused. I think I have finally moved on to acceptance though. My gestational diabetes isn't just gestational any more. I have diabetes again and it's ugly. Things have been out of control. I saw my doctor a couple of weeks ago and just started some meds. Hopefully they will kick in soon, because so far they seem to have no effect. In the mean time I have finally decided to get with the program, so to speak, and take charge of my body.
I have started walking. I put Meg in the Ergo on my back and we go for a walk almost every day now. We walked up the big hill to visit a friend this morning. We have explored the local hiking trail and the wetlands and our neighborhood. We are slow but steady and each day is a little better than the last. When the weather really turns, I am not sure what we will do, but I am motivated now to find something. We have also been having family trampoline time with Bug in the afternoons. He loves it, Meg loves it and I get winded really fast, so it must be good for me.
As far as food goes, that means no more cold cereal for breakfast, and lots more eggs. Bug is upset about the cold cereal thing. Too bad I have such little willpower. Thanksgiving isn't going to be nearly as good this year, but you work with what you have. I am getting used to eating the diabetic diet again, even though I still hate it. Hopefully it will get easier.

In the meantime I am exercising Faith in Every Footstep. Faith that I will get this under control, faith that I will be able to live a full and happy life and be around to kiss my kids for a long, long time. Faith that God doesn't give me any challenge I can't handle with His help and grace. Faith that life is good and there is joy in the journey, I just have to see it.


Katherine said...

Hey Miss, I have been meaning to write you, sorry it took me so long. I am sorry to hear you are having such a hard time, but I am so proud of the way you are handling it. I miss you and hope the best for you. Tell everyone I said hi.
Loves, Katherine

Lily LaRue said...

Honey, I'm so proud of your resolve. Be gentle with yourself and listen to your body, it will tell you what's working and what isn't. Tell me what I can fix you special for Thanksgiving and I'll do it. (Sugar free pumpkin pie?) Sending you love and prayers for strength. Mom

Sharon said...

Well, I enjoyed our walk the other day, even though I know you had a lot on your mind at the time, and would definitely be up for walking the mall or something once the rainy season hits.

I'm sorry that you're having to go through this, but it seems like you are taking all the right steps to get the diabetes under control. I know the dietary modification stuff is NO FUN, but hopefully you'll start feeling better because of it soon.

Melissa said...

I'm sorry to hear that you're having to go through all these adjustments. Once you get it all figured out it'll be worth it.
I love to go walking. Maybe at the mall in the winter or something. If you'd ever like a walking buddy - let me know! :-)

The Waggoners said...

I'm sorry to hear things aren't so fun right now. That's so awesome that you're willing to step up and do what you need to do to feel better. I hope it gets easier for you, too. And you're right - Heavenly Father is always in charge and always watching over us. I've had to sort of re-learn that lately. Keep smiling. :)